Oh what a week.......

Sometimes I wish I could get on here and say everything I ever wanted to say without any hesitation....this is not the case for me. I have a really hard time letting people "in" to my life and sometimes i feel like things are just too private or too special to share. So since I do not want to say what has been going on in my life I am not going to. I really hope everyone can understand and I really hope no one will ask questions. All I am going to say is all the things I feel and all the things I have learned in the past week becuase it truly has been the worst/most emotional/most amazing/and most testimony building week OF MY LIFE!!!!! As i sit back and reflect my feelings I immediately know and feel that miracles do happen!! That the church is true and that if it weren't then there would be no point to anything!!! I am so thankful for family. So thankful for their strength and for their love... I am thankful for their prayers and their willingness to love unconditionally....I am so thankful for prayer. So thankful that when I feel so alone, I can get on my knees and pray with all my heart and soul for comfort and strength!! I truly know it is the strength of the Lord that got me through every minute of last week and that continually keeps me going everyday....I am thankful for the Love of an amazing Man who I get to call my husband. There are so many reasons I don't deserve his love, his patience, his understanding, or him!! But even with all of my imperfections he still loves me. He is amazing and I feel so blessed I am married to him!! I really don't know what my life would be without him....i feel like I would be nothing!! Lastly, I am so grateful for a little girl who has come to OUR family and that I get the chance to be with forever. Brynlee has been my light in a very hard week....she is what put a smile on my face when all I wanted to do was cry. She knew I needed to be loved and she was there, her little squishy self, giving me loves, and cuddles, and kisses.. I love her with all my heart!! I will never forget that when I couldn't sleep, she would wake up and cry for me...something she NEVER does!! I got to rock her back to sleep and hold her in my arms....all my anxiety and worry would melt away and It was just her and I....in the middle of the night, in the dark room, humming primary songs and me watching her sleep....I don't ever get these moments with her. She usually doesn't want to cuddle, or rock, or snuggle!! She always knows just what I need when I need it!! I know everything happens for a reason, and that we learn from the struggles and the hardships in our lives....I will be stronger, I will be a better person becuase of this past week.....I am just very very thankful.....

Going Private....

If I continue to keep a blog I've decided that it needs to be private...so if you would like to continue to read our blog let me know....if you want to send me your e-mail address send it to: kariannmurphy@yahoo.com! :)

My Little Piglet 2009

Better late than never is always my motto... We had a fun Halloween this year!! The week before Halloween we babysat Joe's mom's puppy while they were on vacation. During the week he jumped up on brynlee and scratched her face...really no big deal I thought but it got infected and I ended up taking her to the doctor the Friday before Halloween because it wasn't looked like a scratch anymore it was like a boil and it was spreading all over her face, ears, and hands.... :( It was a staph infection...so my poor little babes looked a little sad because she had infection all over her face!! That didn't put any damper on her spirits...and she was a trooper!! She still didn't quite understand what was going on, but she sure caught on fast that people were giving her candy...and candy is good!!! lol She doesn't usually get very much candy at home, because I try to keep it out of the house or I end up eating it! So she officially experienced her first sugar high!!! When I say sugar high, I mean she was so hopped up on the stuff it was hilarious!!! She now knows what candy is and throws fits until she gets it....example.... Grocery shopping at Wal Mart this past week (Andy ignore the Wal Mart part!! I usually go to smiths i promise!! :) we finally made it to the check out where I had to set brynlee down on the floor because she wouldn't sit in the basket and I ended up carrying her half the time! While I'm loading the food onto the checkout belt she finds the candy...she is grabbing as much as she possibly can!!! I finally see what's going on and try to pry the candy bars from her little death gripped fists!!! I manage to get all but a pack of rolo's...she freaks out, i am embarrassed because i swore to myself my children would not be the crazy ones I always saw before I had kids....and I tell the nice employee to just scan the stupid thing while she is holding it!!! I'm telling you, she was FREAKING out!! We've officially begun the start of the terrible 2's and she is not even 16 months!!!! How is this possible???? We already have time-out's at home, and she is definitely pushing to see how much she can get away with!! She is wearing me out lately...yes I know it is only going to get worse!!! I need to read parenting books or something because I have NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING!!!! lol Anyways...back to my story, she was fine because she has her candy!! Candy is evil!!! Thank you Halloween for this new discovery!!! :) I love our neighborhood so much and it was so fun to see all the kids!! It looked like Disneyland or something!! There were TONS and I meanTONS of kids!! We had over a thousand pieces of candy and we gave out every single one!! I'm so glad Brynlee can grow up here...she is going to love it!! Hope you all had great Halloween's!!

I took this a couple weeks before halloween, glad I did becuase it's so cute!! :)

My little Piglet

Brynlee's Elmo Pumpkin

Joe & I's Pumpkin (All the girls love the snow white pumpkin I knew they would!! lol)

Trick or Treating such a Daddy's girl!!