Brynlee's Blessing Pictures

Well I took Brynlee to get her blessing pictures taken...Brynlee hasn't been blessed yet...she will be blessed in a couple of weeks! I've only had pictures taken by in home photographers but I thought for the heck of it I would try a studio... I worked at Kiddie Kandids for SO long I didn't want to go there even though their pictures are dang cute, I would probably want to take them myself if I would have gone there lol! I'm totally one of those moms now that use to drive me crazy, my baby can smile, wait hold on let me fix this, I don't like that face, and on and on. Thing is when it comes down to it, all moms want the cutsest face, pose, pictures possible! Makes me laugh that I am that way now! I did shut my mouth though and I tried JC Penny becuase my mom always took us there as kids...I let the photographer do what she wanted and just didn't buy any of the ones I didn't like! :) They turned out pretty cute! These are some of my favrotites!!

Classic Brynlee...She always raises her eye brows which you can hardly see becuase they are so blonde!

This one is my absolute favorite!

And I absolutley LOVE the flip flops!

I Am..........

*I am....Ready to go to bed, but my baby is not....
*I think....After buying new clothes today, I should start losing this baby weight! It was very depressing trying on clothes and buying bigger sizes!
*I know....I am madly in love with me husband and baby!
*I want....a house so badly!
*I have....an amazing friend who always makes my days better! Thanks for cheering me up today Amy H.! :)
*I miss....My husband! Man is time limited...I feel like I never see him!
*I fear....of losing my parents, I don't know what I would do without either of them!
*I feel....that I am too hard on myself! I always feel like the worst wife, mom, friend, etc...
*I hear....A very strange show Joe is watching and Brynlee being fussy becuase she is SO tired!
*I smell....My wall plug in...lol
*I crave....sweets ALL the time too! I bet I could lose weight if I quit eating sweets!
*I cry....much too often! Especially when I get really stressed...
*I search...the match to my other shoe ALL THE TIME! I need a walk in closet and better organization for my shoes!
*I wonder....why my dog is so naughty! Just when I think she is completely house trained I come home to pee on my carpet!
*I regret....Not finishing 1 math class and getting my associates degree before beauty school...
*I wish....all our doctor bills were paid off! Sheesh, having a baby is expensive!
*I love....spening my days with Brynlee, I LOVE that she smiles and talks to me now!
*I care....way too much about what people think of me...dumb I know!
*I always....have a water bottle with me. I am ALWAYS so thirsty!
*I worry....about Brynlee getting her first shots on tuesday...
*I am not....the most patient person.
*I remember....when I could fit into my favorite pair of jeans!
*I believe....in Santa! I love Santa! :)
*I sing...when I am feeling sad. I have a "sad" CD and sing my blues away!
*I don't always....get what I want.
*I argue....with my husband sometimes...
*I write....grocery lists, to do lists, and bills to be paid lists! There is a list for everything!
*I lose....when I am not grateful for what I have...I always need reality checks!
*I listen....to the little coos and sounds of my baby.
*I don't understand...politics.
*I can usually be found....Nursing. lol I really feel like that's all I do, but I love it!
*I need....to start exercising!
*I forget....how to play the piano...I wish I would have stuck with that in High School. I once won 4th place in a United State Wide competition for my age group...now I cannot even read music anymore! :(
*I am happy....That I have such a beautiful daughter, adoring husband, and awesome family!

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Brynlee & Abby

Abby was our first baby when Joe and I were first married...She is a beagle and she is almost 2 years old. She is a VERY strange dog! People probably think we beat her or something becuase she has social anxiety or something wrong with her becuase she FREAKS out when"new" people come around! Because of this we were a little worried about her and a new baby. At first she wasn't too sure about her and got annoyed that no one would pay any attention to her anymore. She would go in the other room and pout! Not i think she realizes Brynlee isn't going anywhere anytime soon and is starting to warm up to her. Both Brynlee and Abby are cuddlers...this morning after sneaking off the couch from Brynlee to get ready before she woke up...10 minutes later I came back to find Abby all snuggled up next to Brynlee! So cute! Hopefully her and Bryn can continue to be friends...and hopefully Brynlee can annoy her as she gets older and wants to play with her, ride her, pull her ears etc... becuase Abby has done her fair share of annoying us! :)Brynlee was even smiling in her sleep! :)

Abby as a puppy...loving to cuddle!

So Scared....

Tomorrow is going to be one of the most sad, hard, exciting, long days I've had in a long time! I got a job faster than planned at a beautiful salon & day spa in Lehi. I couldn't turn down the offer becuase it is all I've wanted and more! Tomorrow is my first day and I am SO scared! I am scared I won't be good enough...I'm scared to leave Brynlee for 8 hours becuase I will miss her so much....I'm scared that I am a bad mom for starting a new job when Brynlee is only 2 months old...I'm scared I don't have the energy to do this...i'm scared i'm going to miss all of Brynlee's "firsts"! Luckily I'm only working 2 days a week and my Mom and Joe will be the ones watching her, but I still have really bad anxiety and am SO emotional about this! I'm excited to get back into doing what I love, and I'm excited for the second income again...but is it worth all these feelings I'm feeling? I really hope so! Wish me luck...here goes nothing!

This is how I feel on a nomal day...heaven help me now! :)

Utah State Fair Adventure

Well I can now say I've been to the Utah State Fair. I've lived in Utah 6 years and we finally went. It was a fun little outing for our little family. We haven't gone too many places as a family and Joe cracks me up when we go...he complains that there is SO much baby stuff! Then he wonders why we even attempted going somewhere when of course Brynlee gets hungry the second we get there. I'm use to crawling in the back seat of my car and just feeding her...but he doesn't see the humor like I do in the situation! haha Once we got into the park I was worried all the loud noises would scare Brynlee...but after 10 minutes she was out! She slept through pretty much everything including the animals which were my personal favorite...especially becuase Joe was just loving all the smells! As I came to a VERY large cow I thought....hmmm....after having a baby some days I really feel this HUGE! The poor thing just looked miserable! But, it does boost your self esteem knowing you aren't as big as a cow...even if you might feel like your are! :) We had a really good time and the funnel cake which is my favorite was amazing! Brynlee did give us a little smile as we walked out...so she must have liked it too!

Bad Mom

Do you ever feel like the worst mom? The other day I found Brynlee with her headband over her eyes in her car seat. I first laughed, then wondered how long it had been like that? I then felt like a "bad mom." At night when I've tried rocking her to sleep, and after an hour she won't, I'm SO tired I just don't know why she won't fall asleep in frustration I put her in her swing and let her sleep there for a couple hours...again feeling like a "bad mom." Or there's the after feeding gas which could be more than just gas but I don't want to wake her up to check becuase it's 2 in the morning...again the horrible feeling of a "bad mom" leads me to check, wake her up, and start the falling asleep problem all over again! Or there is the fussiness, and I try everything I can to get her to calm down, nothing works, so I hand her over to Joe and magic! She is FINE! Again...I feel like a "Bad Mom." Oh the joys of having a baby...I'm sure there are MANY things I have to learn and I'm sure I will always feel like a bad mom at times...but I just tell myself Brynlee doesn't know any better...How does she know if I'm a bad mom or not!? :)

Lake Party!

The end of summer is coming to a close and with that are lots of family birthdays! This past week was my dad's birthday. We went over Labor Day weekend to Willard Bay and my sister and brother-in-law brought some wave runners to play with! I was a little worried about bringing Brynlee because I didn't want her to get too hot. We decided we would just play it by ear and if she seemed too hot or too grumpy we would leave. She did awesome!! Luckily it wasn't too hot and we had a huge canopy for shade. It was so much fun! Joe got to see my wild side on the water and kept reminding me to not kill us because we did have a daughter back on shore!! lol I successfully threw us off many times, knocked the wind out of us, and threw Joe off while I stayed on! YES!! It was the most exercise I had in 9 months! Man did I suffer the next 4 days!! :) We also got to see baptisms happen at the Lake...very interesting!! Singing and clapping as they praised the Lord! It was pretty funny...cool though that they were not ashamed or embarrassed of their religion in front of tons of people on the beach...I learned alot from them even though their way of baptism and ours are a little different! I decided Brynlee loved the Lake! She was just super relaxed and laid back the whole day! Man did we all sleep good that night too! I can't wait until next summer when she can play in the water! Happy birthday Dad, Michael, Veena, & Emily... all our September birthdays!!!

She had to have a hat on otherwise she wouldn't open her eyes because it was so bright!

Little something I put together for my Dad who loves hiking and the little REI camping guy with the motto "Life is Good."

Olive Garden lunch, brynlee looks like she just saw a ghost! haha

Grandpa Packer & Brynlee :)